I wanted to express, I was never given a chance on any Major-Tournaments. I know i wasn't and im not the best Competitive player, but i'm passionate about the game, i hate to lose, and i know i gave a lot of people negative vibes when it came to my game. But i lasted this long hoping i would have something more to look-forward to around. Watching these highlighted Matches. Watching the chat just go ballistic after a crit, or miss, or insane set ( Iron Defense Skarm - Lefiez ), It gives you the goose-bumps to want to compete as hard as those players and maybe get that deserving chance you've been hoping to get. In my case, it never happened. And it has gotten to me, it has made me realize i'm just not good enough to compete in this Game anymore. I had a couple decent runs, nothing major, i invested so much time in this game and it never panned out for me.
I'm finally deciding to step-away from this game for good. I have so many emotions leading up to this, but im leaving for good. I've been around since 2004 as many of you know, i was around since the beginning of Smogon.com, since before chaos decided to eat 1 to many donuts, from the days of majestic NetBattle, to the Pokemon-Online development, to IDM, to the Shake Vs Omfuga fights, well yeah since all of that. It's hard having to finally realize this game just isn't for you anymore. I have tried to balance the weight of my life, as many of you know, i do have a Family, i have my own house-hold, i work a full-time job and i have a lot of big changes coming into my life in the next months or so. And through all of that, i still managed to find the time in a day to get on this site, somedays i would literally sacrifice sleep just to get Online and interact with a lot of you fellas, get on discord and interact with a lot of you people, because i honestly appreciate having a lot of you in my life. Many of those come to the Internet for many reasons, but i have always come around because i felt, this was my way of getting away from all my irl problems and interacting with so many of you has been a blast. Smogon.com has been part of half of my life to say the least, i never got banned ( So many times i have looked for it lol ), I have seen so many things, from laughter, to emotional posts that have made a small difference in my life.
But i can't sit by and watch all my friends compete while i'm isolated from joining them and being able to compete with them. So yeah, this is where i say my Good-Byes. Some of you have me on FB, others on Skype. Not sure what i'm keeping myself active on, but i'm certain im done with Showdown and posting on these forums. Goodluck to the Staff, the Players, keep at it. You guys have been nothing but nice to me, regardless of any past incidents.
Also. m/25/nj/dtf?
Peace Bros.